This is something I would totally do. Made me laugh when I read it. This is something I would totally do. Made me laugh when I read it.
So Lent went well for me this year. I actually made it the full 40 days. It worked so well that I think I am going to give something else up for the next 40 days.
I've been thinking about it and since my life is kind of a mess right now I am going to give up kissing for the next 40 days. I'm hoping that I can become more productive and get a lot of things taken care of that I have been putting off.
Everyone thinks I am nuts for doing this and to be honest I have moments where I think I am nuts too. I was kind of back and forth on whether I really wanted to do this but then tonight I got a fortune that read, "Nothing can keep you from reaching your goals." I took it as a sign. We will see how long I last but it will be interesting to see what happens from all of this.
I've been thinking about it and since my life is kind of a mess right now I am going to give up kissing for the next 40 days. I'm hoping that I can become more productive and get a lot of things taken care of that I have been putting off.
Everyone thinks I am nuts for doing this and to be honest I have moments where I think I am nuts too. I was kind of back and forth on whether I really wanted to do this but then tonight I got a fortune that read, "Nothing can keep you from reaching your goals." I took it as a sign. We will see how long I last but it will be interesting to see what happens from all of this.
So last week I had the week from hell and it appears that this week is not going too well either. I thought I was finally getting things back on track and that everything was finally falling into place. Guess again. Sadly, the quote that keeps running through my head these past couple weeks is, "The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh."
I went to see Geri today. I was kind of hoping that I was coming to terms and accepting everything that has been going on. Of course I knew better than that and as usual I have just been repressing everything. I hate going to see Geri sometimes. I hate that she tells me things I already know but don't want anyone else to know. I hate that she can see through the fake smile and pretend cheerful attitude. I hate that with one look from her I can burst into tears but mostly...I hate this damn depression.
I'm tired of fighting it. I'm tired of acting like everything is ok when its not. I'm exhausted and not in an I need to sleep for a couple hours kind of exhaustion. I feel like I have been hanging on by a thread for to long and now its starting to fray. I have no idea what is going to happen once it breaks.
I know I know a dark and depressing blog entry. It's been awhile though right. At least I think it has been awhile.
I went to see Geri today. I was kind of hoping that I was coming to terms and accepting everything that has been going on. Of course I knew better than that and as usual I have just been repressing everything. I hate going to see Geri sometimes. I hate that she tells me things I already know but don't want anyone else to know. I hate that she can see through the fake smile and pretend cheerful attitude. I hate that with one look from her I can burst into tears but mostly...I hate this damn depression.
I'm tired of fighting it. I'm tired of acting like everything is ok when its not. I'm exhausted and not in an I need to sleep for a couple hours kind of exhaustion. I feel like I have been hanging on by a thread for to long and now its starting to fray. I have no idea what is going to happen once it breaks.
I know I know a dark and depressing blog entry. It's been awhile though right. At least I think it has been awhile.
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