Aaliyah in response to me telling her every big person wears underwear.
"Jordan wears panties though."
So this week has been quite interesting. I have had 2 people pop back into my life that I hadn't really expected to hear from again. Sadly, when they realized that I would not drop everything to do their bidding they went off on how I was a bad friend and they can't believe they even contacted me. At first I was hurt and then I was a little angry. Why is it that I have surrounded myself with people who are never there when I need them but as soon as they want something from me I am the first one they call?
One in particular really pissed me off. I haven't talked to him in over 6 months and any attempt to contact him on my part has been ignored. Around 2 in the morning the other day he texted me saying he was having a bad night and wanted me to come over. I'm sorry but I am not going to someones house at 2 in the morning when I know full well what they are looking for. Needless to say when I told him I wasn't coming over he told me I was a crappy friend and then has not talked to me since.
I realized how much I have changed. Before I would have bent over backwards to try and get back in their good graces but I really don't care anymore. Maybe its the fact that I am planning on moving far far away and I am sure I will lose contact with the majority of my friends. Maybe its because I really don't want to have to take care of anyone else right now, my plate is full. Mostly, I think its because I've come to the realization that these people were never really my friends and I don't have to try to get everyone to like me. I'm tired of being the girl everyone comes running to when their life is falling apart and yet they want nothing to do with me at any other time in their life. And heaven forbid they stick around when my life is falling apart...that is just to much to ask.
As much venting as I have done in this blog I have to say that I really do love my life, I just wish I made enough to support myself LOL. I love watching my nieces and spending time outside. I love that I can have lunch dates with my grandma and that I can actually go to DUP. I am grateful that each month I some how manage to put a roof over my head and food in my belly. I really have been blessed and have so much more than a lot of people.
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