What You've Missed

I’ve been meaning to write for quite some time but I just haven’t had the time, energy or a computer the past month or so.

The last part of August and first part of September have been really hard and stressful for me. I haven’t really wanted to talk about some things but I guess it’s time to start processing. I’m just going to highlight a few things and then if I decide I want to go into details down the road I will.

Several Saturday’s ago I found out that one of the guy’s I used to date committed suicide. To make matters worse he had tried calling me twice right around the time they predicted his death. I didn’t answer the phone because it was a number that was not programmed into my new phone. (I don’t answer unknown phone calls because of drama.) Needless to say I was pretty upset and my family doesn’t really seem to understand, in fact, most people just don’t understand. I’ve just kind of pushed it on the back burner and haven’t wanted to deal with it. It’s been hard this week though because I had to listen to my mom and my sister go on about how stupid suicide is and how selfish he was. I really just don’t want people bringing it up right now. Plus, this weekend is the annual walk to raise funds for suicide prevention and people are asking if I am going because I’ve been directly affected by it recently. Truth be told I don’t want to go, I know I should go, but I’m not sure I am ready to deal with everything.

That same night I found out about Matt’s suicide some guy tried to attack me when I came home from Jordan’s house. Well he might not have been trying to attack me, but I really don’t know since I wouldn’t get out of my car at 2 in the morning. The end result was a high speed chase through my neighborhood and my car needing to get the alignment done. I’m alive and safe so that’s all I’m going to say about that.

My grandma’s case finally made it to trial; it has only been 3 years. My aunt was found not guilty of exploitation of an elderly person even though she flat out told the jury she took my grandma’s money. She was found guilty of opening a credit card under my grandma’s name so maybe she will get sentenced with a felony on that one. The judge won’t even decide until November.

In good news, Jordan got married on September 4th.