Life has been crazy busy the past week or so. Camille and I have been spending most of our free time looking at houses. I got sick this past Friday and I still have the hacking cough. I get home from work and am beat and the only thing I want to do is sleep.
Camille has suddenly become gung-ho about getting her business up and running. She wants to work on business plans when I get home but all I want to do is fall into bed. I think she is getting frustrated with me. I can’t help it though I am sick.
I guess we aren’t getting a house anymore and instead are just going to get Camille’s business started. She says maybe next year we will get a house. Who knows.
She has a really good idea for a business and I am sure it will do well. I want to help her in anyway I can but I really have no intentions of sticking around long enough to work at the store.
I have more or less decided that I am moving down to Richfield. I HAVE to take my first accounting class at the campus and that should be done by the middle of June. Once that is done I am hoping to be able to take the rest of the classes online and therefore will be able to move. I am sure I can swing something with work to be able to work from home. That way I will have a job, since jobs are scarce in Richfield, and I can still get my free tuition. The biggest downside will be that I will more than likely have to go back on the phones. If I go back on the phones I will probably cut my hours back because I don’t think I can do that full time. That’s okay though because it will give me more time to work on my book and getting my other business up and going.
I’m a little bit frustrated with myself at the moment. Remember the story of the genie and the lamp and how when people would ask for something they didn’t think it all the way through and their granted wish was not what they had hoped for. Well I feel like I am in that boat right now. Back when I was so depressed that all I did was cry and I prayed and prayed to have my feelings and emotions turned off. Well it worked, the only problem is that I still don’t really feel anything. How many people have died this year and how many funerals have I attended and I think I may have cried once.
I didn’t even notice my lack of feeling until recently. I can’t zone if I can’t feel. Now that I’ve started going to see Geri again and have started to try and zone again I am realizing that my gift is gone. Ugh, so frustrating. It was really hard to turn of the emotions and feelings and I am finding that it is even harder to turn them back on.
Moving on to a different tangent. Amanda and I talked this morning and we are both going to try really hard not to bad mouth some of the “special” people that we work with. I think it will help with our moods and attitudes.
Also, they upped the price of tuition for my NLP seminar so I am not going to be taking that anytime soon. They raised the price about $500 in a one month period of time. That is crazy.
I guess it’s for the best though because now I will be home for Father’s Day and for the birth of Jordan and Jamie’s baby. I really wanted to be here for that and I was a little bummed that I was going to miss it. Eh the raised price was probably just the Lord’s way of telling me it wasn’t time.
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